darkness

Happy mood

2005-07-11T00:44:00.000+08:00

Guess what?my hunch tells me soon I will get a full time job.. cause I went to interview on last friday morning and It seemed like the interview went pretty good.. in fact I should say this is the best interview I have had so far since my graduation and the interviewer seemed very friendly. In the end we ended up talking like a friend..
anyway, I am going to quit my part time job after careful consideration. First of all, the payment is not that good and I guess there is nothing much I could learn except learning to take hardship?haha.. Secondly, My friends are coming down to Singapore soon and I also have more time to accompany them. Third, I guess it is much better for me to help my sister and learn more from her rather than work in retail industry.
Talking about retail industry, I finally rejected Hang Ten offer as the work commitment and working hours are really driving me mad. Imagine working 12 hours a day from 10 am to 10 pm and 6 days a week, plus 9 months commitment..Initially, I really wanted to take this job without considering whether it is worth it.. But after sitting down and thinking about it carefully, I decided not to take the job offer as I know being a manager, you still have to arrange the merchandise and financial statement after end of day..so I dont think it will be 12 hours..it could be 12 and half hour..No life at all.. but who knows..the moment I rejected the job offer...there was one call for me to get an interview as a marketing and trade executive...what a luck I have..
but this weekend seemed to me a good weekend..just stayed at home and relaxed..have been very tired as far as I concerned..so it is really good time for me to take a rest except on saturday where I went to Cine with my hometown friends to play pool..for 2 hours..not too bad huh
well..meanwhile I have got to go now..time to sleep..ciao

Be a better person

2005-07-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

Finally, I have a chance to post again...It has been a long time since the last time I post. Anyway, these days I have been busy working and I am really getting used to it. At first, it seemed to me that I really wanted to quit working but I always take criticism as a motivation for me to work harder and fortunately, I do. I still remember the girl I had crush on and my best friends told me I am really spoilt rich kid and I, myself dont believe that I am such a person. But anyway, somehow I was wondering if I work in retail industry is just to prove to them that I am not that kind of person or just I realy like this kind of job?
I can't think much of it but somehow it is just a part-time job for me and it is also so coincidentally that I had interview last week in retail industry as well. But somehow I really think hard whether I should take this job as It seems to me retail job is really a job that very tiring ( no life) at all. haha...
phew..I reckon I should take this job if I am accepted since the company will train me how to manage a shop and stuffs like that. plus I can get my PR if I get a job. so why not? it is only 9 months commitment and 9 months seem a very long time to go but I do believe 9 months is not that long considering when u r busy working..
and lastly, I am now really got over the girl...I dont really think too much of her or concern about her..just a normal friend now..good for me ..haha.
I also want to thank to those who had critisised me but trust me..I prove to all of you that I am not that kind of person "my actions are louder than word..only times will prove it to you ..
meanwhile, I also want to thank to all of you as well since it just motivates me to work harder and harder.
and I want to write to the girl that I had crush on although you dont read it:
Although I dont love u anymore but I still will treat you like my own sister and try to change you to be a better person...

Brighter side of life

2005-06-24T02:30:00.000+08:00

Everyone has their own problem so do I, but the question is how to solve the problems and try to look at the bright side or look forward. Fortunately, I am able to solve my own problems. I finally able to start doing something that I find it useful such as wake up early in the morning, exercise, reading paper and books, job hunting (as usual), and try to help parents whenever I can. isnt it very useful?ain't u guys agreed? haha.. Although the problems that I am facing are still not totally over, but at least I am moving forward...it seems I am nearly there..just need more time.. anyway, it wont be a good posting I reckon, if I dont type down what my problems are. So here we go, I am always known as a person who helps people out of their problems by giving them advice but somehow I know it is easier to give advice rather than applying it.. Most of my friends always said I am a good listener and adviser, and now I am facing with my own problems, I dont really know who should I turn into? My best friends are not in Singapore and I have less friends over here..Anyway, my problems all started when I finished my study, facing with the problem of looking for jobs I really hate falling in love..,unfortunately I was or I should have said I am :P..this girl, Joyce (not real name), is kind of girl who is spoilt and outspoken, like to be pampered (guess all girls like to be pampered). Initially, I really had no intention of getting a girl friend..as I am always a person who take career as my priority. But somehow, we went out quite frequently and things just turned out to be what I am most afraid of..that's falling in love again..I reckon it is probably the time we spent that caused the feeling grew, although I have never told her how I felt but we already behaved like a couple. Most of my friends, who bumped into me (never say hi or called me though cause they said they didnt want to disturb me) haha, saw what happened and all of them thought that she is my girl friend although she is not. Well, although I told my friends that she is only my friend, none would believe me, but it is normal as I wouldn’t have believed it either if I was my in their position. Sometimes, I was brooding over if I didnt tell her how I felt towards her is a good thing of bad thing? I supposed it is a good thing though (what you guys think), since she finally told me that she still loves her ex and I knew it all along but she just didn’t admit it. Well, at least I have the answer plus our characters and personality are so different, so it is the time to forget her. She also always claimed,” guys are always bad, always treat the girl so sweet when they want to win over the girl, once they do then the girl no longer mean anything”. But hey, I treat u so good but it seems that you never care or u r so ignorant. Well, sometimes I wonder why the way you to talk so rude even if u don’t mean it, but just think of other people’s feeling before you speak out..
One thing that really hurt me was the day when I accompanied you when I supposed to work. How could you tell me I am spoilt rich kid and cannot take hardship. I didn’t want to tell you initially that I supposed to work but somehow I told u accidentally, so I just told you that I had body ache after I worked 2 days ago so I just took day off. Well, I just didn’t want to tell you that I didn’t work just because of you since it might make u feel bad. Part of the reason that I didnt go to work also because of my body ache, this is why I think why I didn’t just take day off since I have promised you to company you. Besides, my body is painful so just take it as a time to relax. This is about the promised yet you said I am spoilt rich kid. It is my family who is rich not me. Darn.
Well, anyway you didn’t mean it when u said this, it was just a teasing remarks.
Whatever it is, I have finally getting there soon, I don’t have the urge to give u a call or talk to you anymore..But I wish you can wake up as well since your ex, from what I saw doesn’t love you ..just want to have fun..but it is not my decision though…wish you all the best..
Part of the reason I can fall in love also because of people influences such as my friends or family. I rejected some girls when I was studying since I wanted to concentrated on my study but now after finishing everyone told me I should find girl friend and I did…well all ended up in a disappointment but who cares….at least I gave myself a chance now..not too bad
Alas, I am awake now from my dream and start doing something useful. Yeah..time to go now cause I have to work today and need to do some exercise to get myself fit and fresh..
Bye for now

Having fun

2005-06-22T03:13:00.000+08:00

What a day..Today I went out with my hometown friend. Initially, we had no idea what do do or where to go? Fortunately, my friend suddenly thought of idea to start new business and he went to buy a book that relates to his idea. Soon, we stuck of where to hang around. Suddenly, I thought of bringing a book too from my place and we can sit down, having coffee and reading a book...this is one of my hobbies..Well, I told my friend of my idea and he agreed. After taking the book, we headed to Paragon Coffee Bean, having coffee and cheese cake while reading our books..Never imagine we could sit down for 5 hours although we had a chat as well..
Anyway, after that we went to CK Tang to buy perfume for my friend's employees.. what a good boss huh... still think of his own employees but it is good though..since he told me that his employees are very good so it is natural for him to be concerned of them.
Soon, we went back to my place and had dinner as my father just came back from Indonesia and bought so many Indo food..guess we really had great time today.
At 9 pm, my friend's cousin gave him a buzz and asked if we would like to go to club for a drink..we finally went to Boat Quay (Sahara) but I dont really like the atmosphere over there, esp the song..but anyway...I must say I had fun though..
It really makes me forget all my unhappiness such as job hunting and the girl I hav crush on..
besides, I have started reading finance book...so at least I guess I can get some knowledge while looking for jobs and guess it is a good idea for me to start taking Mandarin course..it is getting more and more important since every job requires mandarin speaker..
Well..I hav to sleep now...bye for now

first work after graduate

2005-06-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

Alas, I found a job...although it is kind of job that I hate most but just a part-time job...so what can I expect? it is better than nothing.... well, first I got this job from a friend of mine (Billy)whom I just got to know for 2 days...not too bad huh hehe...
The job is pretty all right but the supervisor is suck...esp the management team and the stupid skinny supervisor who is so bossy...just because u think we are waiter doesnt mean you can do anything you want...
for me, I just tried to control my temper cause it is very important for me as I already lost control of myself during my first interview in a trading company..I am stupid I reckon..
in a situation that I shouldnt get angry, I was but in this kind of job I could control my temper..what a luck I have...
Phew..anyway.I worked as a waiter who served drink and food to rich and honour guests include some actor and actress..
Pretty tired since I was asked to change all stain chairs by myself...But I deserved it haha since I carried two chairs at once..people thought I am very strong..but my idea was I tried to finish it ASAP..but who knows there were so many chairs to change and finally it makes my hands shaking...
Well, I earned $56 after worked for 8 hours..
what a pay..at Australia, this kind of job, I would have got pay for almost $200..
But this is life at Singapore..have to get used to it..be strong
ok ..I have to go

same shit different days

2005-06-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

As usual, I went to watch movie again with the girl that I have crush on...although it is supposed to be another movie..but it is fine with me cause what I want is just to meet her..well...it seems like this girl still the same...never change the way as what I want her to be...I hope one day she will change to be better and then I can tell her how I feel...cause at the moment it seems pointless to tell her how I feel towards her since the day I realized I fall in love with her.Our character is different so I guess there is no point for me to ask her to be my gf although I know she likes me and I am pretty sure of that..Maybe I am too selfish..anyway times will tell if you are mine..I dont want to commit as well cause I havent known if I will stay at Spore or other countries..hope everything will go as i want it to be